My Heart breaks, an ever cascading mount of cares, thoughts, and emotions.
Often I'd like to OPT out of it ALL
Often I'd like to NOT care.
But I do, for You are here.
You gave me the Heart that burns with Compassion in my chest.
The Heart that choses Love and casts out Hate.
You taught me to love, for if I wont, who will?
and I have Peace, for You are here.
I have this Love that tears my Heart to shreds and overwhelms my Soul leaving me short of breath.
But I take comfort, for You are here.
You made this Heart to Love,
This person to Trust You, and through that do Great things.
I have Faith, for You are here.
Still at
my love, my love for you
for you its endless
endless as the sky
the sky stretches on forever.
and forever it will be there
no matter what you do
no matter how far you run
or how deeply hurt you may be.
Just look up, for thats where the sky is
forever.
And Forever will it be there, endless.
and forever will I be there. Endless. timeless. unconditional.
Hold to that hope. Even though it seems so small, so unreachable. Cling to it.
And I'll be there, always.
Cast upon by a wintery glance by psuedonym-June, literature
Literature
Cast upon by a wintery glance
Paint for me a change of scenery,
For I tire now of snow covered roses.
Paint for me of sand covered towels
salt kissed woods
dreams in sun sets
and hopes in sunrises
Draw for me clear blue skies or DEVISTATING THUNDERSTORMS
Sketch for me cherry blossoms in bloom
Green Leaves bursting forth on trees.
Paint for me hope Faith compassion.
Draw for me love STRENGTH and peace
Sketch for me a change of scenery
Alas the Shadow will fade by psuedonym-June, literature
Literature
Alas the Shadow will fade
Go on, walk past.
Dont even cast a backward glance.
And still, I'll be here
For whatever reason I'll still care.
And everyday I'll forget the past more
and More.
With hopes that soon will come the knock on my door.
And there you'll stand,
in my eyes you will be a knight
with sword in hand.
to defeat my dragons, to defend my land.
Until off again you go, carried by the wind you know
so well.
And still I'll be here. The hurt will heal and the pain will..........fade
But soon after not another backwards gla
the death of love and friends by psuedonym-June, literature
Literature
the death of love and friends
the days go sadly....
my hope is my despair as well...
two emotions in one, conflict with each other.
heart and head agree and disagree
my memories are cherished and dreaded.
here i am. alone. those who stand by me look the other way.
noses stuck in the books of their own lives... not that I'm complaining.
I know I'm selfish too.
my love, my love for you
for you its endless
endless as the sky
the sky stretches on forever.
and forever it will be there
no matter what you do
no matter how far you run
or how deeply hurt you may be.
Just look up, for thats where the sky is
forever.
And Forever will it be there, endless.
and forever will I be there. Endless. timeless. unconditional.
Hold to that hope. Even though it seems so small, so unreachable. Cling to it.
And I'll be there, always.
My Heart breaks, an ever cascading mount of cares, thoughts, and emotions.
Often I'd like to OPT out of it ALL
Often I'd like to NOT care.
But I do, for You are here.
You gave me the Heart that burns with Compassion in my chest.
The Heart that choses Love and casts out Hate.
You taught me to love, for if I wont, who will?
and I have Peace, for You are here.
I have this Love that tears my Heart to shreds and overwhelms my Soul leaving me short of breath.
But I take comfort, for You are here.
You made this Heart to Love,
This person to Trust You, and through that do Great things.
I have Faith, for You are here.
Still at
i need to be more diligent about my art. while i do really think that i do it for myself, myself would benefit more if i did it more.... hmmm. did that make sense at all? I need to fix mein guitar. and then i need to learn how to play it... and then i need to play it.
So I went to Utah today. which made me miss amy and derrek, cause we used to joke about going to utah to get married because polygamy was legal. Sitting on a mountain top looking out at miles of earth and sky was very humbling. But yet I still cant believe its almost been a year since I lost my friend. I think about it and realize that Im still just trying to breathe, take it in, and exhale. its a continuous cycle. I need him in my life. I go places and see things that make me think of him and I hold my breath and look beside me to see if it was a dream, to see if he's standing next to me with that awestruck look on his face. and I miss him
So, after spending a week in Springfield MISERY... i've decided things about my life.... plenty of things. like i'm really just a hippie at heart. I'm going to get a degree in something and join the peace corps(e) haha. the bridge to teribithia is an incredibly sad heart breaking movie/book and is not the inspiring uplifting story of friendship i once thought it was. I am even more in love with Zombie flicks after watching 28 days later than I ever was. and I hate irresponsibility. I love the outdoors and walking around aimlessly downtown getting coffee with friends and finding incredible hole-in-the-wall stores and taking pictures of the mo